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→Jonathon Conte, 31: Wikify.
I was about 14 years old when I learned that part of my [[penis]] had been cut off. It seems like this is something that one might realize earlier in life and yet I never did. I was never taught about normal male anatomy and no one ever explained to me that I had undergone genital surgery as an infant. When I learned the devastating truth, my stomach sank and my throat closed up.
It wasn't easy for me to accept reality. Even though I understood that part of my body had been removed, I was in denial about the implications of this fact. I battled with depression, particularly whenever I had to see my [[penis]]. Each time that I got undressed to take a shower, I would see the scar and I would be reminded of what was stolen from me. Each time that I [[Preputial_sac#Urination| urinated]], I would be reminded that I would never know how my body was meant to look and how my body was meant to feel. I felt violated and helpless. I felt embarrassed and angry. I felt robbed and betrayed. I felt incomplete and damaged. And yet, I was incapable of verbalizing any of this. I was paralysed by embarrassment of my condition and by fear that others would neither understand nor sympathize.
It took over a decade of trying to cope with my emotions before I gained the strength to take a closer look at the issue. I read about the [[Foreskin#Physiological_functions| functions]] of the [[intact]] penis. I studied the numerous physical, physiological and [[Psychological issues of male circumcision| psychological]] problems that result from male [[circumcision]] and I began to recognize many of them in my own life. I learned of [[Circumstraint| the way that babies are restrained during the surgery]] and the various techniques that are used to rip, clamp, crush, and cut their tiny bodies. I came to understand the greed, arrogance, and ignorance that perpetuates the [[genital mutilation]] of children.