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I would have eagerly granted him the "better aesthetics" and "better endurance". In the beginning, I could not understand why my wife resisted and refused to agree to a [[circumcision]]. I had always thought she was as convinced by my "enhanced" [[penis]] as I was - but that wasn't the case.
Instead she went to see a child urologist. When she saw my son and his harmless [[phimosis]], she was shocked [[shock]]ed about the flippancy with which our paediatrician wanted to circumcise our son.
A really key experience came two years later. I had by then read on several internet forums that the surface of a circumcised glans gradually becomes thicker and sensitivity fades. So I tried to fight the callused [[skin]] with facial defoliant cream. I did not feel any pain, it did not even feel unpleasant.
That was when I slowly realized what I had really lost with the [[Circumcision|foreskin amputation]]. I was shocked[[shock]]ed: what was normal for me my entire life was just a faint "residual sensitivity". I had more sensitivity on my upper arm then on my supposedly most sensitive spot.
This experience also made me understand why so many circumcised men have such a hard time realizing their loss. It is an unimaginably huge step to be able to accept that one has not been refined, but to the contrary, one has lost so much.
When my [[penis]] was still intact, which was up to almost 7 years of age, I myself never felt any need to pull back my tight [[foreskin]]. This was always just of special interest for the doctors. I never had any infections. Only the ballooning during urination was a bit unpleasant, which was also seen as an urgent indicator for an urgent [[Circumcision|foreskin amputation]]. What a ridiculous assessment! Today, being almost 40 years old, I stretch my way to a new [[foreskin]] with customary devices, and I gain almost half a centimetre a month. For an unhindered flow of [[urine]], it would have taken just few more millimetres of preputial opening. How easily could I have been helped with the most simple methods of careful stretching, without sacrificing my otherwise unscarred and uninfected [[foreskin]].
Even though my parents openmindedly discussed my [[phimosis]] with me (sometimes with others as well, which I always perceived as very embarrassing), they never really explained to me how a [[foreskin]] was supposed to function. My dad, who was still intact by that time, never showed me the [[foreskin]] on his [[penis]] and how my [[penis]] would look after the [[circumcision]]. I only remember my mother once mentioning that a single cut could be placed in the [[foreskin]], but that it would then "hang like rag", so cutting it off would be better, and that a lot of other boys had that, too. A therapy with creams was never tried on me, and people who claimed a [[phimosis]] could be treated with stretching were ridiculed. The doctor who was acquainted with my parents, who eventually performed the operation when I was six years old and who had "examined" me several times before (meaning he tried to forcefully retract my [[foreskin]]) also wasn't man enough to demonstrate to me how a [[foreskin]] was to be retracted and, most importantly, what my [[penis]] would look like after the operation. I very vividly remember the moment when I first saw my [[penis]] afterwards, deeply shocked [[shock]]ed about the blood-red naked glans, but the doctor quickly said it had all gone perfectly and that I wouldn't need to be worried.
No one told me beforehand that my [[penis]] would be altered in appearance for ever and could never again be experienced in the intended way.
Since there seemed to be no big deal, my parents agreed and we drove an appointment a few days later in the hospital. There I was, “according to the rules of medical science”, i.e. under additional local anesthesia and general anesthesia cut radically, that is the entire [[foreskin]] was removed. The surgery went as planned and there were no complications. When I was woke up in the hospital from the anesthesia, I still did not worry because I had been told that it was only a small cut. That same day we were able to drive home.
But already on the way the anesthesia wore off and the pain came. It began to burn terribly and with every movement, a sharp pain shot through me. At home, I could then take a look at the result of [[circumcision]], because I had no [surgical wrappings], but only a kind of loincloth made of bandages around my [[penis]]. The first look was a [[shock ]] for me. It just looked terrible. The glans was colored bright red and below was the swollen and blue tarnished wound with dark red edges of the wound, from the dark blue threads were held together. Was this the "small cut" done there? I had not been prepared because no one had told me what all would be cut off. My parents were surprised that so much had been cut off.
In the days after the surgery I had severe pain. On the one hurt the fresh wound, and came to the pain that was caused by the fact that the now unprotected glans constantly rubbing on cloth bandage. It was particularly bad when urinating, because it was scorching and therefore I could let it run only dribs and drabs. My mother made me then regularly use a lukewarm liquid in which I had to dip my [[penis]]. I did not know for what good it did, because it did not relieve the pain. The odor of this liquid has so burned into my memory that I can still clearly remember even today.