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I remember that there was no explanation of the procedure. He strapped my son to the board and cleaned the area. It was just me and the doctor in there. Then he gave him shots all around his [[penis ]] and my son jumped at the first shot and started screaming. Then he said he had to leave him sitting to wait for the shots to work. I don't know how long he was gone and I just held Noah's hand and told him I was sorry. Then he came back. I remember he took 2 clamps like tweezers and stretched out his [[foreskin ]] and my son started screaming. I got weak in my knees and I realized it was too late to stop and I wanted to stop it. He began to cut and he said "I know it looks like I'm cutting a lot but he has a lot to cut". Then he took a little plastic ring and stretched the remaining [[skin]] thru it and over it and put a pin to hold it. He grabbed a string and tied it with all of his strength around it. I was shocked that there was something to be left tied to my sons son's penis. The doctor just looked at me and said it would fall off in a few days and no big deal. I asked a counselor at the rehab why would they have left something on his [[penis]] and they just shrugged and said it will fall off. And it did a few days later and I think I blocked out his recovery and even getting home that day because I don't remember. Here is the worst part....for years I defended my decision I thought women who didn't do that to their son were lazy or ridiculous. Just like all of the defensive cutters that I confront now.